a "love"ly countdown

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14 days till valentine's 

my heart took a trip halfway across the world

i lost it in july and still can't seem to find it

flashbacks of elementary school days are the epitome of my self-hate  

how i used to write the last name of my crush after my own 

how i was too nervous to talk to boys  

how i would plan out what specific valentine i was giving to what specific person

because of course,

that was the most important thing

one year i was riding home on the big yellow bus all by myself, carrying my "mailbox" full of valentines. Walking down the steps to get off, i tripped and they flew higher than my dignity. 

i don't know about you,

but valentine's day has never been my thing.

I haven't been able to get over the fact that there's only one.

1 day out of the whole entire 365 to show affection?

If only every day were valentines day, (excluding the pda)

maybe we wouldn't be so afraid of ourselves 

our emotion is buried deep in that hole we once dug to china

a chunk of our hearts, 

each and every one of our hearts,

drowned in the red sea

and though I'm still trying to revive them

most won't let me

mentos will upset a bottle of coke

so open up the package and 

share them till theres nothing left

let your cup be halfway full of ice

and fill it to the brim with caffeine

february wasn't made for explosions 

neither were you.

x marks the spot

      and o won't subside 

you may not be ready for february,

but welcome her with open arms

put on your red lipstick,

don't bother to grab your phone

take her hand and feel it in yours

february is ready for you

and there is nothing you can do about it.

xoxo

--Lola